This post is going to dive more into my personal side as it pertains to my traveling. It’s also going to talk about kinky things by association so if that’s not your thing, skip this post – no hard feelings.
Now that that’s out of the way, let’s get to the good stuff.
I identify as a Leatherwoman. If you don’t know what that is, Google it or wait for another post. That’s a whole post of its own and not one I’m writing today.
I have been exploring BDSM for about 10 years (as of 2017) and for a little more than half of that, I have quietly but steadily been exploring Leather and what that looks like and means to me. I am so lucky to have some amazing people who are also traveling their own path in Leather.
The event, Drummer, in it’s current form, Drummer North America (DNA), holds a huge part of my Leather heart. When it was brought back in it’s current incarnation in 2015, the man who I consider my Leather brother and who took me under his wing a lot of years ago, asked me if I wanted to volunteer for this event. As I have mentioned in previous posts, I have pretty severe social anxiety and I wouldn’t know anyone but him at this event but I said yes anyways. We had spent a lot of time trying to bridge the gay and pan communities and despite not knowing anyone else, I felt a responsibility to put up or shut up. So up I put. The weekend came and pointed in the direction that might need some help. The help that was actually needed that weekend was minimal so I was left to figure out what to do with my anxiety-ridden self. Little would I know that there where two big things that I would experience this weekend that would impact my Leather journey.
Pushing my boundaries that weekend, I started meeting new people. People from all over the country and further. People who where my peers in age and others that years of experience on me. Everyone was kind and welcoming and engaged me in wonderful conversation sharing their experiences and asking about mine. One of the people I met was the fan-fucking-tastic Toni Solene. I had been put in contact with her before on Facebook with her but never had the opportunity to really meet or talk with her. She invited me to the women’s roundtable but due to the timing and other responsibilities I had that day, I was unable to attend and always carried a bit disappointed about that. (Mark this as important point #1 of the weekend.)
Later that day, I was asking what else I could help with and was told that there wasn’t anything else that was really needed and to just enjoy the event. Wait, what? This totally threw me and took me out of the realm I was socially comfortable with. So I did the one tried and true thing from all of my socially awkward years growing up. I went to the library. This one just happened to be the Carter/Johnson Leather Library. For those of you who don’t know what it is, the Carter/Johnson Leather Library is an amazing collection of all things that pertain to our Leather history. Vi Johnson is active in reclaiming items to ensure that they either get back to their original owners or are preserved as part of our history. She takes portions of her library and travels to different events so people can experience some of this amazing history. This is where I felt completely at home at DNA.
I so carefully went through the library, looking at each publication and item, soaking it all in. Truly some amazing pieces in our Leather history held in this little sliver of a larger collection. As I went through, I found “Spirit + Flesh” by Fakir Musafar. It is a photo collection of Fakir’s personal body modifications as well as others over about 60+ years. Most in the body modification/piercing world would regard Fakir as the one of the pioneers of modern body modification. I had heard of this book but because of it being out of print, the cost was too high for me to purchase for myself. I remember settling in and savoring each picture and page and just being awestruck with the beauty and power held within. A couple years prior I had requested information on his body piercing intensive workshop but due to the price and where I was with my life and health, I had dismissed it as something I wasn’t going to be able to do any time soon. I just remember sitting there, going through this book thinking “It’s time to invest in me and what I do.” (Important moment #2) As the evening drew to a close, Vi gave me a pair of the white gloves used to handle the older books and told me to keep them so I would have them when she was able to convince “them” to add flagging library to the hanky code with a white glove 😀
I left DNA really feeling connected to the Leather community for the first time ever and inspired and motivated to take action in my dreams to grow in my skills and desires.
About three months later I was in San Francisco, learning and honing my craft from Fakir Musafar. That’s pretty powerful, if you ask me.
What does all of that have to do with my recent trip to ATL?
In the start of 2017, I saw all of the usual announcements of the new title holders for DNA 2017 but along with all of that I saw an announcement for Women of Drummer and to stay tuned for details. Well, that totally had my attention. As much as a had a love for DNA, it was still a Gay Leatherman’s event and my spot was from a supporter standpoint (albeit an enthusiastic one.) I was completely excited to even have a the possibility to be a more active participant with DNA.
After a few months, the announcement was made that there was going to be regional Women of Drummer (WoD) gatherings. As locations were were announced, I wondered just how far I was going to have to go to participate. Finally the Southeast gathering was announced and Atlanta was the city. Atlanta was “doable” even if I went by myself, but I put the call out for anyone who wanted to join me for this. I didn’t just get one but two takers so a weekend churn and burn road trip was planned.
Out early on the Friday from work and off we went. The awesomeness of the weekend started from there. Usually, with longer times in transit, I expect to have times of silence (not bad, just lulls) because in my opinion, comfortable silence is better than forced conversation. Despite this expectation, we had a drive up ( and back) of comfortable, honest and engaging conversation with little to no downtime without being fake or forced. In fact, the open dialogue that happened over the entire weekend, whether it was 1 on 1, with my travel companions and myself or a large group, the constant dialog was one of my favorite things over the whole weekend (which is saying a lot, given my slight introverted tendencies). Some of the conversations were rally cries, some were sharing similar or different experiences and some were difficult but honest conversations that grew me.
The Southeast / Atlanta WoD Roundtable was to (that) date, the largest of the regional gathering with an estimated 35 women coming to participate in some combination of the meet and greet, roundtable and play party.
The most humbling part of the WoD weekend was the reminder the roundtable gave me that there is so much diversity within the umbrella of “women.” So often, being a women’s whatever is different enough that it’s easy to forget the vast diversity women can bring within themselves. The WoD roundtable reminded me that even in a group of 25, there were so many ways we all identified and even those who shared labels had different experiences and were in different places in their journey. Lesbian, queer, hetero, pansexual, black, white, submissive, dominant; these were all descriptors that were used by the women in attendance to identify. Then, add in the fact that we all were sharing that space at different parts of our journey. It was humbling and so fulfilling to come to this space and what made each of us unique was not that we were a woman with these experiences, but that our individual experiences were what set us apart and gave us something to share with one another.
A big thank you to Toni and Jessica for their vision and action to put this in action and start to build what I hope will be the starting ripple female focused Leather spaces for us to revel in our fierceness!
I could keep writing but I think that it would end up rambling even more than it already is. What I do know is that I have come to cherish sharing space with the fierce women I know and continue to meet in my travels. I look forward to helping make more opportunities for shared space for fierce, badass women to gather and celebrate their fierceness.